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Monday, May 29, 2006, 10:42 PM
im quitting.. its cfm
kwon asked me wad am i going to do after leaving this job.. (since it is 3 more mths before my NS).. i said i want a short break and later find another job.. he asked whether i have searched for a new job, i said no... den he asked what job scope im looking for (he even offered to find a suitable job for me but i said no thanks).. told him that im willing to try any jobs (since im just waiting for NS).. den guess wad he said? he said, "den stay la. why dun wan to stay?" maybe im not specific enough so i replied to him that i want to try jobs are business related.. he said, "where got company who wants to employ a person for 3mths?..".. i said, "why not, this job isnt my line anyway.. im sure that there are other jobs available like retail and service.. " he just shut up after that.. people change, whether is it for the better or for the worse.. when i first came to this job, my impression of kwon is good, he is funny, friendly and taught me alot of things abt this job.. yet it all changes after he was promoted.. maybe the success got into him or it was too much stress for him.. he began bossing ppl ard (even colleagues that have been working together with him for 1 yr or more).. when things didnt go his way, he will either scold, or just show his black face, or begin to hit things hard or throw things.. today, he told me and alan that he going to watch movie X-men today so will be going off early.. i was kind enough to ask who he is watching with.. he replied "why u so kaypoh?".. blame on my big mouth, maybe shd i just shut up.. he didnt want to say whos he going with.. but i can cfm that he isnt going with his wife.. some other woman? hes just a flirt and can see him flirting with sue, the secretary most of the time.. he doesnt even bother when alan said that he shd be faithful to his wife... so he left at 5.30pm, left the 4 of us (jai, sham, alan and me to do OT).. he asked jai and sham to tell us to finish cleaning the 4 pumps that we dismantled by today.. wth, i tot he agreed (when alan asked) that we can go home after we finished one set (2 pumps).. if he wants us to do it, he shd have just said it earlier.. in the end, we finished 3 pumps (left the last one for tmr, we dun really care too much anymore), me and alan was really tired of washing, had to rush to finish washing 3 pumps in 3.5 hrs.. i have said/seen enough of him that i dun continue toking abt him.. when i came back home, my mum asked whether im really quitting my job (she heard it from dad cos i have told him b4).. i said yes.. oso told her why.. and told her that i have a problem with kwon.. dun tink i can work with him anymore.. pondered thru my post ytd nite.. probably i shdnt be too nice to ppl anymore.. doing good doesnt do urself good.. i have learnt it from the things i have gone thru.. @love/relationship: dun expect me to put in my 100% in someone that doesnt appreciate it.. over these few weeks, i have thought over it again and again.. now when i tink back, i wonder why am i so naive, do so much things for her and even changed myself.. my life unknowingly, not only she doesnt appreciate it, she finds faults in wad u do and told u that it isnt the style that she wants.. she tells u one list of things she expects from her partner, without realising that u urself didnt demand anything from her and u like the way she is now.. she tells u this but actually she means that (she told u that u will be the one who will accompany her back home in the future, but one week later, she told ur closest fren that we shd start off as good fren first and i shdnt everytime sent her back home) .. she tells ur close fren that she is afraid of u (bcos of the things u did), u tried to refrain urself from doing too much cos u dun wan her to be afraid of u anymore.. in the end, she just thinks that u are cold towards her.. she says she wants to know better before committing, tell u everything abt her, and expects u to tell everything abt u to her.. u choose to forget the past but circumstances forces u to think of the past.. maybe words do wonders as compared to actions.. maybe i shd just write a book abt my past and wad i am if it is the way.. the most hurting part is when she said, "dun u tink i know nth abt u? sometimes i think that we are actually just frens.".. it comes from a person whom u have known for 2 years, chatted on msn frequently and went for two overseas trips with her.. one reason of not "knowing" u or u dun tok drowns all the things u did for her.. sometimes, i wonder wad she wants to know abt me.. is it my family backgrd? my life? my past? wad if i just tell her everything, will everything be like it is now? u asked wad is the problem... she tells u tat the main difference between both of u is our thinking.. yes thinking.. thoughts.. and i dunno wad makes her think that one will noe wads she is thinking.. u blame urself for wad happen (for not toking more to her).. get upset again and again.. everyday, ur mind is abt her.. at times, u feel that life is meaningless.. but as time goes by, u tink of it again, u realise that u shdnt be too hard on urself cos u did nth wrong.. it is just u didnt do things u shd do.. maybe it is just the way u are.. @friendship: wad are friends actually? people that is slightly more than just strangers.. ? adversity begins out ur true frens.. Though i haven got thru adversity yet, but i can forsee who will come and who will go... dun expect me to be nice, if u are not nice to me.. |
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Vanity isn't a sin, a little narcissm wouldn't hurt.Lim Yu Chen | 09Jun86 | Mayflower Pri | 1F : 2F: 3B: 4B: 5B: 6B | Mayflower Sec | 1E4 :: 2E4 :: 3Integrity :: 4Integrity | Ngee Ann Poly | Diploma in Business Studies (Service Management) | SIM - RMIT | Bachelor of Business (Management) | likes: surfing the net, listening to music, playing and watching soccer, go on food hunt, cycling, mahjong, watching movies |
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